My life is full and busy, so the decision to have a third baby was met by a few raised eyebrows and a few "are you sure?" and "you think you can manage?" The questions were fair enough. I'm not offended by the reactions - I own and operate a busy interior design firm and an expanding retail business. I have two boys under 4, 3 dogs, and a husband with an equally busy life. But ultimately the answer is YES, I am sure. I'm over the moon.
I would like to say I dreamed of a big family since I was a little girl but that just isn't the case. I actually never dreamed of a big family, I assumed I would have at least one. In fact, my family is shocked that I'm the one contemplating 3 or more children. From the moment we had our first, I just knew: I wanted a big family. I could picture myself sitting around the dinner table with my brood when they were in their twenties, listening to their stories.
Also, I love being pregnant! I love feeling them wiggle around, I love having a belly and knowing I'm growing another little character. This is really saying something because I have morning sickness my entire pregnancy. Sometimes only to be overshadowed by heartburn that has me sleeping upright. And Oh the restless legs! As you can imagine I'm a dream to share a bed with while pregnant. Still, for all of that, I love it. Growing a human is a privilege and I know I'm blessed that I can do it, so I do it proudly. Granted not always gracefully (I own maternity shorts, yes the horror).
I'm not going to sugar coat things and say I float through motherhood - I don't. I've cried in the car more times than I care to admit. I have lost my temper. I have drowned my sorrows in donuts. I look older for being a mother and my belly button will NEVER look the same. I joke it has a happy "lived in" look and now permanently winks at me. I have stretch marks or battle scars as I like to call them to mark each baby I've carried. My body is a map of my path to motherhood.
Just like everyone's path to motherhood is different, everyone also has a different path through motherhood. I believe with my whole heart that we have the right to figure out how we want to mother. For me, that means being a working mom. That means working until the day I deliver and taking days of maternity leave instead of months. I'm lucky that I own my own business and I can bring a baby along with me. I guarantee you will see me sourcing tile and fabrics with a baby at my side!
Choosing this path doesn't come without judgement, and it's okay if you judge me a little bit. I am truly happy with my path through motherhood. My mum always told me that she "was a better mom because she worked" and I know what she means. Having my career makes me really happy and ultimately a happy mom means happy children - all three of them!
So there you have it; I'm committing to sharing a bit more about life as a mom and a pregnant one for the next few months so feel free to ask my anything and thank you for everyone that shares our excitement about our new addition.